It was March of 2022 when I hit rock bottom.
From the outside it looked like I had everything I wanted in life but during the peak of my material success I had never felt more empty inside. I couldn’t cope with the stress around building a business that was taking all the energy away from me instead of allowing me to share more of my light with the world.
This feeling of anxiety was haunting my every day life and I started to become a shell of a person. I put so much emphasis on how I looked on the outside so I could mask the turmoil that was happening inside of me. Anti-anxiety pills and alcohol were keeping a lid on my emotions but at some point every feeling I suppressed for years came out full force.
I simply couldn’t take it anymore, so I trusted that the universe would catch me in my leap of faith as I decided to take a step back from a business I had given my all for years. I had no idea how things would end but I knew we would eventually be lead towards a path that was for the highest good of everyone involved.
It was the hardest decision I’ve made thus far, but I knew deep in my heart that I needed a completely different life trajectory in order to find my most authentic version and the true wholeness I was so desperately looking for. In order to create space for a new self I had to let go of my old beliefs around success and “having” to work hard to be viewed as someone worthy of anything.
It was a bitter sweet feeling walking away from something that was such a big part of my life but I also know that nothing in life happens without a bigger reason behind it. We may not see it right away but in the end it was all meant to happen exactly how it did. Divine timing doesn’t operate around deadlines, sometimes you need to walk down a road before you’re ready to go into the right path for you. It’s all happening for us, even when it doesn’t look like it.
During my year long journey of self discovery and spiritual healing to connect with my natural gifts I started to ask myself:
“If I could choose to do anything in life, what would I actually do?
What if there is a way to make money doing what I truly love?”
You see, we’re so conditioned to think about what we don’t want that at times it can be really hard connecting with what we do want.
Going through this big career change was like a true rebirth of my soul. It was through connecting with my biggest desires that I was able to find more clarity around what to do next.
I’m carving out my next chapter as a life + business coach because I truly believe they go together. The more we try to hide under our business facades the more of fears and insecurities come to surface level.
We are all here in this life existence to share our bright light with the world. I’m here to help as many people as possible connect with their inner light and most authentic version that makes them special in a very unique way.
Being this vulnerable is harder than child birth but it’s this scary feeling that makes us grow.
If you made it this far, thank you!
From the bottom of my heart I truly appreciate your time and hope I can help or inspire you to find your true path in any way I can!
XO
Fernanda
